Posted in Faith

True Identity

 

herding sheep

Have you missed me this past couple of weeks? If you haven’t noticed my absence of blog posts, it’s okay. I understand. We are all so busy. The days fly by. The weeks come and go almost as quickly. To be honest, it doesn’t seem like such a long time to me either.

You see, I’ve been preoccupied with finding myself.  Remember my last post?

I’ve been pondering some tough questions — and sharing my bunched up, confused ramblings with a few trusted friends.  Friends I felt were unlikely to write me off as crazy, even though that’s exactly how I’ve felt at times.

I’ve been searching the scriptures. Really searching, and studying, and searching some more.  Digging into God’s Word. Opening my heart up and allowing – more like begging-  God to pour His word deep into the crevices of my unsettled heart.

Much to my delight, that’s exactly what He has been doing.  Oh, how I love it when God shows up and shows out!

And do you know what I’ve found to be absolutely true?  My identity most certainly is defined in Him.

To this point in my life, I believe it has been – for the most part – wrapped up tightly in the labels I’ve worn.  Both those I’ve given myself and those imposed upon me by others.  But do you know what is great about labels?  They. Are. Simply. Labels.  They can be peeled off and thrown away.  Replaced with the truth, making room for me to become who it is God has called me to be.

How special is it that God does not place labels on us. Instead, He chooses to see us stripped of labels.  He notes our potential and expects us to accomplish the assignments laid before us. Just as He saw Gideon as a “mighty warrior” long before he became one, He also sees us in light of who we will become, not who we have been or who we are at the present time.

He will take what I believe about myself (those dreaded labels) and print me some new ones.  When I say, “I am too shy; I am lacking knowledge; I don’t speak well; or there are so many others who could do this better than me”, my precious God whispers to me, “You are enough. You can do this.”

He promises to equip me to do that which He has called me to do.  He reminds me that when I am weak, He is strong.  He declares I am more than a conqueror.  He proclaims I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

God knows me.  He sees me. He understands my struggles. He delights in my desire to follow Him, to obey Him, and to live for Him.

God calls me important, strong, smart and capable. Because I am His and He is mine, I can believe I am these things.  Because of Him…  I am enough because He has made me enough.   And therein lies my true identity.

Posted in Faith, Family

In Search of Me

street lights

Somewhere along the way I’ve lost myself.

It seems my identity is deeply hidden beneath what I do and for whom I do it.

I proudly wear the title of friend, daughter, sister, wife, mother, and Mia to my first grandchild. I’m very comfortable in these roles.  I love being these things to my people. I am very much aware of the blessing of family God has gifted to me, and I wouldn’t desire life any other way.

Yet when asked who I truly am outside these roles, I find it extremely difficult to conjure up an intelligible response.  Truth be told, when the labels are stripped away, I am quite uncertain of who I am.  And that scares me.

So I’ve decided to take a little journey.

  • To peek into my past
  • To ponder where I’ve been and where I’m headed
  • To revisit the beautiful portions
  • To recall the heartaches, however painful – and the good I’ve known because of them
  • To identify my struggles – and to allow myself some grace as I work through them
  • To dive deep into God’s word as I uncover the camouflaged path set before me
  • To know my Creator more intimately
  • To understand more clearly what it is I mean to Him

All in hopes of finding myself again.

Perhaps you, too, are searching for your purpose, trying to find your way, or hoping to discover your worth.  If so, sweet friend, may I invite you to join me on this quest?  I don’t know exactly what it will look like, nor do I know how quickly the answers will come.  But this I know, when we seek solutions within God’s Word, we will never be disappointed.

So off I go, in search of me ….